My Favorite Music Videos That I Watch Over and Over

"Best of Me" by the Starting Line

"Tribute" by Tenacious D
"Crawl" by Chris Brown

"Happier" by A Fine Frenzy

"A Sorta Fairytale" by Tori Amos

"Girlfriend" by Avril Lavigne

"Fidelity" by Regina Spektor

"Stars" by Switchfoot

"Ordinary Day" by Vanessa Carlton

"Jolene" by Dolly Parton sung by Mindy Smith

10 Songs That Have Influenced Me

"Butterflies and Hurricanes" by Muse
"...Best, you've got to be the best, you've got to change the world and use this chance to be heard. Your time is now..."
"Folding Chair" by Regina Spektor
"...Maybe one day you will understand I don't want nothing from you but to sweetly hold your hand..."

"Sleeps With Butterflies" by Tori Amos
"...I'm not like the girls that you've known, but I believe I'm worth coming home to..."

"Penelope" by Lindsay McCall
"...And I will wait a hundred years, but every night when the lights are low, I put it together and I pull it apart..."

"Can't Help Falling in Love" by Elvis Presley
"...Take my hand, take my whole life too, for I can't help falling in love with you..."

"Somebody to Love" by Queen
"...Can anybody find me somebody to love?"

"Dog Problems" by the Format
"...I think it's safe to say I've only got myself to blame..."

"A Sorta Fairytale" by Tori Amos
"...And I rode alongside you there, til you lost me there in the open road..."

"Konstantine" by Something Corporate
"...I always catch the clock it's 11:11, and now you want to talk. It's not hard to dream, you'll always be my Konstantine..."

"Bird of Summer" by A Fine Frenzy
"...We planted our kisses where the wild berries grow. My feet sprouted wings and I flew all the way home..."

10 Artists That Have Influenced Me

John Mayer: I just love his voice. I love his lyrics. He plays a mean guitar. And he looks like a bird when he sings.

Queen: My favorite 80s band. There would probably be more Queen songs on the soundtrack to my life than any other band.

Ingrid Michaelson: I love her voice. Duh. Her version of "Can't Help Falling in Love" will be my first wedding dance.

Tori Amos: Crazy, creative, colorful woman.

The Format: The Format is my depressing music. When I am in a crappy mood, they're the only band I want to listen to. They remind me of Michael Davis.

Jack's Mannequin: Jack's Mannequin puts music to my love life. It's like he took his lyrics out of my life, as high school as that sounds.

Lindsay McCall: If I was on a desert island, and I could only listen to one artist, it would be her.

A Fine Frenzy: I love her music, but I love it more because of her. She's just bubbly.

Mae: Mae is just inspiration.

Regina Spektor: Ah, Regina. You are so weird.

10 Movies That Have Influenced Me

Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind: This movie makes me believe in fate. And in not being able to help who you fall in love with.

Clementine: "This is it Joel. Its going to be gone soon."
Joel: "I know"
Clementine: "What do we do?"
Joel: "We enjoy it"

The 10th Kingdom: This movie made it okay to still believe in magic.

Wolf: "Forgive us noble woodsman but have you seen a gorgess girl with very long hair?"

Woodsman: "I havn't seen anything, I'm blind."

Tony: "A blind woodsman?"

Woodsman: "Have you ever seen a tree move?"

Nick and Norah's Infinite Playlist: I think I could watch this movie every day and not get sick of it. And find something new and funny every time.

Nick: "I think we both said somethings we didn't mean... like when you broke up with me... on my b-day."

What Happens in Vegas: Come on, Ashton Kutcher? Need I say more?

Dave the Bear: "Do you even know how to drive an automatic?"

The Family Stone: I love the family dynamic. Makes me love my family. The parents in that have the kind of understanding I want to have with my own children someday.

Ben Stone: "Hey, I'm here, I'm queer, get used to it."

Amelie: This movie makes me love Paris.

Amelie: "It's better to help people then garden gnomes."

The Fountain: This movie makes it okay to have girl crushes. Rachel Weisz is so gorgeous in this movie. Breathtaking.

Isable: "Together we will live forever."

Mean Girls: My most quoted movie.

Short Girl: "Hey get out of here!"

Damian: "Oh my God Danny DeVito I love your work!"

Kill Bill Vol. 1 & 2: For about two years, it was the only movie I ever wanted to watch... and did watch, about three times a day. I had posters, swords... Not my proudest moment.

O-Ren: "You didn't think it would be that easy did you?"

The Bride: "You know, actually for a second there, ya i did."

O-Ren: "Silly Rabbit.."

The Bride: "..trix are.."

O-Ren: "...for Kids"

Away We Go: I don't own it YET, but they have the kind of love that I want to have. It's so real. Just the way he talks about their future... It doesn't hurt that it's also John Krasinski.

Burt: "Do you promise to let our daughter be fat or skinny or any weight at all? Because we want her to be happy, no matter what. Being obsessed with weight is just too cliche for our daughter."

Verona: "Yes, I do. Do you promise, when she talks, you'll listen? Like really listen, especially when she's scared? And that her fights will be your fights?"

Burt: I do. And do you promise that if I die some embarrassing and boring death that you're gonna tell our daughter that her father was killed by Russian solidiers in thie intense hand-to-hand combat in an attemp to save the lives of 850 Chechnyan orphans?"

Verona: "I do. Chechnyan orphans. I do. I do.

Her Morning Elegance

Truth Tellers! Issue #1

I woke up. I woke up for the second night in a row standing in our bathroom. I've never been one for sleep walking. Standing in the dark it took me several seconds to finally figure out where i was. Standing before the mirror gripping both sides of the sink. Avoiding the mirror i noticed the scissors that i always kept in the bottom drawer laying on the counter.
I remembered the day i bought them. It was cold and raining, we had been planning on cutting your hair. I wanted you to go to a salon, you told me once you got the job we would go to the salon every week. At the time we were the poorest and most in love. Struggling together.The only picture in our studio apartment was the one your mom took of us, she had snuck up on us as i had climbed onto your lap needing to feel your whole body against mine on your parents porch swing. You told me that was the only art we needed that it was silly to get expensive art that neither of us could understand.
We skipped two meals so we could buy the ones meant just for hair. Your hair was so long. We sat in the pale light of the kitchen debating whether or not to keep it long. It was late, i had been pacing our small space for hours waiting to hear if you got the job. Your smile was so big as you rushed to me. We celebrated by making love on the kitchen floor.
Running my hands through your long hair for the last time i think that's when everything changed. If i would have known i would have never cut it. I would have pushed you back on the floor and made love to you until our bodies couldn't anymore. You changed as i cut your hair short. You became a man with a job, a man with a five year plan. A man with plans of moving up in the world.
It was two months later that the strip turned pink and i was carrying your child, that was the same day you got your promotion. I think i know which one you were more happy about. You never knew but i kept a peace of your long hair. I tied it and put it in one of the three books we had owned at the time. We have a library now. You bought it for me after we lost the baby.
So long ago. Now you laid in our huge bed fast asleep, and i was awake again. Looking in the mirror i saw a face i didn't recognize. My long hair tangled and wild around my face. I picked up our scissor. The cheap ones we bought in the store under our crappy studio apartment. It was raining that day and you pulled me outside to have a kiss in the rain, whispering to me how much you loved me as the water washed the city clean.
The darkness around me was suffocating. I shut the bathroom door so not to wake you and flipped the light on. Picking up the scissors i cut. I cut and i cut. My hair fell all around me just like yours had. I felt the weight begin to lift off my heart as i cut away the fights we had had, and the silent dinners. I cut away the night you didn't come home, and the look on your face when you did. I cut away your job and our retirement plan. I cut away my pain from the miscarriage. I cut until there was nothing more.
Turning off the light i waited for my eyes to adjust to the ever present darkness. Leaving my hair everywhere i left our huge apartment with expensive art hanging on our walls, you still asleep in our bed.

Hard nights sleep

Let me say ahead of time yes this is another "oh who am i" post... its my blog i will moan if i want to.

Today is a school day. i have my first class at 8 in the morning. To prepare myself i went to bed at 10:30 because i know that i wont get up unless i get the sleep. I got the sleep and i still couldn't get out of bed. i watched my alarm go off singing some happy Regina song and i let it play as i pulled the covers over my head. I love my classes i really really do. I have an amazing kick boxing class that makes me feel so healthy and fun and i have it with one of my all time favorite people. I have a film class where all i do is watch movies and write how I feel about them. I am learning all the things i have always wondered about. My stress management class is actually teaching me to stop and smell the flowers, i have friends in that class who look forward to seeing me and laugh when i say my stupid sarcastic comments. Art History is fantastic i am loving it so much (not as much today because i have a test)

Why don't i get out of bed to start a day i know will be fantastic? Am i setting myself up to be angry or guilty? I am sick of feeling under the weather.